自己读02 | 方商羊读Serenade behind a Floating Stage

欢迎来到“自己读”，在这里，你能听到来跳岛做客的朋友们朗读自己的作品。深呼吸，跟随声音进入他们的世界吧！

方商羊

Serenade behind a Floating Stage

My friend called and said that sex saved him. He made me listen
to streets in the Philippines waking up in rain, panes and trees
repeating a low note of C—chorister, cage, a choir captures
the cadenza of falling cardamoms, then a quartz of quietude.
So eventually, it was the Q—queer, he said, the parched skin
of the quarryman, whom he loved briefly for an afternoon.
For so long, we’ve mistaken the Q for C; weeping, he then recited
a passage of the Śūraṅgama Sūtra, an odd, phonetic transcription
from the Tang dynasty. The power, he insisted, is in the sonance,
not in its meaning, its attachment. This persistent, desperate,
loud howl of August is but the insects’ thirst for mating
and survival. The naked nearness of a swimming pool pulses
in blue, so artificial it seems real. Wrongness: for years, my life
depends on a false letter, and as consequence, instead
of the quiet, a cry drills the carnage of my heart. Had I chosen
the path of Q, its hidden “you” might have entered me
with a silence, to which my heart would yield as the hollow
inside an oboe. The cicadas continue practicing deft mastery
of invisibility. I join their quartet. Where the moon streaks through,
the night makes a sound of fabric being torn inside my head.
Dark and huge, it is frightening to be alive with a song in you.

【出品人】蔡欣
【主理人】猫弟
【节目编辑】何润哲 黄鱼
【后期制作】AURA.pote
【视觉设计】孙晓曦 王尊一